Hello and welcome to my site. My name is Christie-Leigh and I’d like to thank you for taking the time to read this. This blog tells the story of my entrance into a world that I never willingly became a part of, the world of baby loss. My journey began on 4th December 2016 when, at 41 weeks pregnant I was given those earth shattering words, “I’m sorry there is no heartbeat”. After carrying my baby for a further two days, on 6th December 2016 at 12:42pm; the absolute love of my life, Lennon George made his silent entrance into the world at 41+2 weeks.

There is no doubt that this journey has been (and still is) the most painful and difficult experience that I have ever had to suffer, I am dead yet my heart continues to beat…..

So I decided to write about my journey and tell the world all about my beautiful little boy. The little boy who changed my entire world, the little boy who is adored so much there aren’t any words to describe it and the little boy who created me….. His devoted Mother

Although my baby was stillborn he was in fact still born and therefore his story deserves to be told. It is my aim to create a space where I can share my thoughts, feelings and various emotions whilst I continue to ride the ups and downs of this emotional rollercoaster. I won’t be sharing everything with you (I never share pictures of my boy) but I’m hoping that the things I do share can provide an insight and a little understanding of the grief that comes from the death of a child.

Last but certainly not least, I hope that my journey can possibly provide a little help/knowledge to fellow bereaved parents. I am still a newbie on this journey of loss and grief but I feel that I have learned so much in such a short period of time, and I hope I can share this with you. If my writing brings you just a small five minutes of comfort, it has served its purpose.

This is the story of Lennon George Carr-Stout and the Journey of the Mammy he left behind…..